Music....or Movie?

Dear World,

It's 2 am and I'm still up. It's not because I'm not tired. I'm very tired. I just hate going to bed. I guess that may sound strange to some people but I really do hate going to bed. The part I hate is being alone. I love being around people. I love being intimiate. Now we aren't talking about sex here. I just love being close to someone. But there is no one there. It's so bad that not only do I stay up way too late on the computer but when I do finally decide to sleep, I have to start a movie or boring audiobook because it gives me the feeling that people are interacting. I need that all the time so even during daylight hours when I'm home alone, I do the same thing. I love music. All kinds. But it isn't the same. Music is so one-sided. Someone sings or plays an instrument and you listen. It's soothing and beautiful and I love it, but many times it isn't what I need. I need to hear people talking to each other, carrying on conversations. Audiobooks work because the reader changes his/her voice for each character. It makes the conversations more real and life-like, the way the author intended. It helps me not feel so alone. It's funny that there is such a difference between music and the talking in movies, tv, and audiobooks. The talking gives the illusion of human contact. It works wonders on lonely people. And now I'm going to go to bed and let Fivel the mouse give me the illusion that I am not alone.